School.
is.
INSANE.

(And that is a bloody understatement)

So tell me, what happens when it stops?
Oh well, I've braced myself for it

OK stop. Time to wake up and get back to life proper :-)

Things will get better from here on.. I promise myself

Cass, If it's not making you happy, why do you keep doing it?

Just go! Run! Far! Now!

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,

I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry

The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.

That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of

the highest power. In lonely hours. The tears devour you

I want to stand with you on a mountain,

I want to bathe with you in the sea.

I want to lay like this forever,

Until the sky falls down on me

I don't know what I'm doing

I don't know where I'm going

I just know it feels good to be happy....

Wonder how it'd feel like to just disappear and runaway, hmmm.. must be exciting

13th, August

Absolutely love simple dates @ random neighbourhood malls/areas, where we'd end up buying random stuff
I know it may not be much but.. hmm.. I don't know? It just makes me happppy
To put in simply: Feeling really blessed ♡


Xoxo

12th, August

♥ Kisses on the forehead; You make me happy

Mon, 15th

But..
I don't think I am
Well..
not anymore

(& I dreamt of the 3 of us last night.. just like the old times..)

20th, July

Can't say much,
or should I say we're too worn out, too tired to make comments
Only you know whether its genuine or not...
After all the effort we placed for you which proved to be of no use
Honestly, kinda feel like we don't think we deserve this
Like a bad dream which is still going on
and that an answer good enough to make it stop would be too difficult to find
I don't even know whether it would ever stop hurting

1st, july

Love watching you while you sleep..
So peaceful
Makes me smile
:)

June, 20th

Would I lose myself? Lose the control i have of my life
If only you knew what I've been hiding
I don't know.
I'm afraid.

30th, May

Have officially abandoned the blog as a whole, since its a personal blog anyway.
Or maybe i should say i finally have the time to actually use my laptop..

So.. I'm over and done with my attachment, which was not too bad
How can it bad when all you do whole day long is taste food/get free snacks & market products?
It changes my outlook on what jobs I would be looking at future,
opening up more areas where I can venture too.
But I'm still not sure. So much insecurities in my life/future.
Why must it be so tough to earn money and be succesful? WHY
Ok.... just random thoughts in my mind...

Anyway work last Sat was on of the best working days i've ever had
Hardly any customers which means a rather relexed day
And free surprised fruit salad from the chef brightened up my slow moving afternoon
Just spend most of the time staring at the beach and watching people move around
in their bikinis and swimsuits (Sadly didn't spot any hot bods, hah)
Headed over to FoodExpo after work
Been so long since I last went, always so fun last time.. I guess not anymore, since ppl change.. OK moving right along..
It's still the same, yummy food + saaaamples
Only thing was the pushy crowd which was kinda pissing?















After that, crashed over ys's for the champion's league finals.

It's my 2 weeks break, like Finally.
Able to get my well deserved rest after like what? 6, 7 months of the non-stop working/studying routine.
Been exteremely busy for the past few months.
The continuos routine I had never allows for any rest.
That explains why I never really had time to myself & Haven't had proper rest since... ever.

Heading to FoodExpo in awhile. Yes, again. (That's why I'm fat like that)
Can't wait!
Will be back soon, hopefully

16th, May

Nothing beats this

15th, May

Had one of the most expensive weekend I've ever had
Spent an insane amount within 2 days
But it was ALL worth it
How I wished the moment could last forever
Getting away from the stress of the world, its just as if the only thing that mattered is us
By far the best weekend treat ever


If I could, i'd spend every weekend like this

11th, May

Don't understand why can't I be happy with who I am, with how I look, with what I have
I'm really honestly sick and tired of looking at my reflection and feeling like a piece of crap
Sick and tired of thinking of my bleak future
Sick and tired of being stuck in this shitty routine called "my life"
Why can't I feel good for once?
I'm really trying.... trying to be truly satisfied with myself
But why do I always feel like I'm failing?
Sometimes I really hope I could sit down and look at myself and tell myself "You're amazing"
Or wake up feeling happy with who I am and tell myself it's gonna be a great day

But I don't/can't..

29th, april

I FREAKIN WANT THIS SOOOO BAD :(
urgh... this sucks.....

Any sponsors? Pretty plsss???

19th, April

You know how it feels when you happen to read about other people's life and cant help but to end up feeling all disappointed and envious at the same time?
Sigh.
Looking at my life right now, it's just this big blurry mess, with no start... and definitely no end.
I really want to be able to achieve something, just so I can be proud of myself.
I've got no more confidence plus the fact that sometimes it feels like I keep on giving,
its running me dry.
Like I'm in the middle of the desert just sitting and waiting for that tiny raindrop which never comes.
Once in awhile, i too like to be at the receiving end instead.
Looking back and thinking about how much effort I put in and how tired I'm getting, it just makes me feel worse.
Like a big fat loser.
I honestly see no joy in my life anymore right now.
There's nothing to cry about yet there's also nothing to be happy about.

Feeling insecure. Feeling fat. Feeling ugly. Feeling like shit.
I want to just sleep and get lost in my dreams and wish that this time I don't have to ever wake up again

You ask me why I'm angry. I told you I'm not, but I was just kinda hoping for you to make me feel better...

12th, april

Consequences of having strawberry icecream sundae straight after a bowl of sour-spicy noodle?
Garunteed Stomach ache
Not to mention, the addition of more chili to the already super spicy noodles

Bad move

4th, Mon

Period

March, 18th

Random photos from ages ago:
Most impromptu and shortest Vday dinner ever, thanks to something called Nights out
and
Random supper at cafe cartle after deciding to catch a midnight movie

March, 12th

Great day with dinner being partially free (awesome)




Been too busy recently, I've no more time for the cyber world.
Well.. looks like it's time to update this space
But for now, off to crash @ Ys
I'd be right back